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Something That's Bothered Me Since I Was In Thrid Grade-Ish

This is just a weird little thing that I'm reminded of every now and again. The other night, I had a dream  about being in a swim class and it reminded me about this. This is a little bit of a personal area for me, but I thought it was a meaningful point in my life, and the fact that it's something I think about every now and then when it happened so long ago, just goes to show you that some things always sting.

When I was a kid, I used to go to a swim school nearby with two of my cousins. It was only for a few weeks I think, but it was usually very fun. I got to hang out with my cousins on the ride to swim camp and after we would go to my house and swim in my pool and have fun. But my cousins and I were all different ages so we weren't ever in the same class at swim school, so I would make new friends while I was there. It was never hard, I was super bubbly and nice and usually other kids were nice too.

The school had like divided times for swimming and playing games on the field, so usually I would make friends with someone from class and we'd play games together on the field. This one summer there was this girl who seemed nice and she was a really good swimmer, so I thought I would be friends with her. She also knew some twin boys from her school too, so we all hung out together and played games on the field.

And one day she was super nasty to me and said "Don't hang out with us. We know each other from school so we hang out together and we don't want you around us." Of corse I don't remember her exact words or anything, but it wasn't like she said it nicely or anything. I mean there isn't even really a nice way to say that, its just kind of rude. Half the fun of swim camp is to make friends with people that you didn't know before.

I don't remember exactly what I did after that. I was hurt, obviously, but I didn't cry or anything. I found other girls that were actually nice and I think we played red rover. I think we included the whole class, including the snobby girl and the only people in the world that would be friends with her.

I think this hurts me so much because it was the first time I was ever really rejected in life, and thats kind of a hard thing for any kid to accept really. It's never fun to be rejected, but I feel like you'll always remember the first time you were rejected.

And I've always tried to come up with theories over the years. I thought maybe she had a crush on the twins and I was taking away from her attention, because obviously I was much cuter and had a better personality than she did. I never really thought until recently that it was just because I was being the annoying one. I didn't know these kids, I just decided to be friends with them because I was a good kid that liked making new friends. I also had a HUGE crush on the singer Aaron Carter at the time, but that's what normal girls that are like 9-10 should do anyway. They should make new friends and obsess over teen pop stars. Not completely turn down anyone that would try to be nice to them.

Anyway, I guess this is just all a thing of the past. It hurt my feelings at the time, but it didn't change my personality at all. I was still the bubbly girl that was in love with Aaron Carter... and that didn't change until I was in 6th grade, where I went to a new school and people were mean to me and Aaron Carter went broke and started doing drugs.

 I'm glad I made friends with those other girls after she kicked me out of her group. It's not like I ever kept in touch with any of my swim class friends, except my cousins and other kids that went to my school... but still. It's nice to have new friends for a week or so.

 If you have any younger children or relatives going through something similar, just tell them it'll be okay. I mean it's 12 years later, I'm still clearly awesome, that girl is still probably a snob and in love with the twins that were clearly both in love with me because I had a much better personality. And Aaron Carter went to rehab and-despite being a grown ass man that still sings That's How I Beat Shaq on tour- seems to have cleaned up quite nicely and is doing a lot better than he was back then. Good job Aaron.

Anyway, have you ever had any experience like that? Were you ever super mean and rude to someone? Tell me in a comment type form.

Byeeeeeee!
-Shannon

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