New Years Resolution: Be Nice to Everyone- but be NICER to the people who matter most and TOUGHER with everyone else

So just for some fun- I'm going to start out by telling you guys my resolution when I was an Edgy Freshman in High School. I wanted someone to ask me "Don't you think you're crossing the line?" And for my response to be "What line?" This was an actual thing I told people semi seriously (Ok it was more of a joke- but I did really want to do that.)

This resolution is better. I've realized something: I am a nice person. So... why is that a bad thing? Well- I'm not sure the people I'm closest to would necessarily agree with that. I'm sometimes very moody and easily upset when I get stressed out.

And I feel like something that might be what is stressing me out is that I'm TOO nice to... people that I should probably be a little tougher with. I feel like people might be under the impression that I don't have a backbone when it comes to some things... and that isn't something I want people to think. I might be too trusting of people which can sometimes make me gullible... and that's just not something I really think I am. It just ends up stressing me out and then I feel like I'm not nice enough to the people I love.

So... yeah I would like to continue being the nicest person that I can be... but I also don't want anyone to do anything fishy and for me to be like fine with that I guess? This is a hard thing to explain- but essentially I don't want to waste my energy being overly nice to people that aren't nice to me in the hopes that that will make them nicer or like me more... it just hasn't been working and enough people I love actually love me that I shouldn't be worried about everyone liking me.

I hope this has helped in some way and maybe no one that reads this will be a pushover in 2020 because I'm really not a pushover and I don't want people thinking I am.

Bye!
-Shannon